I have realized something about myself. I am extremely goal oriented. I think I knew this before, but never really recognized how true it is. Perhaps it's because up until this point I've always had some sort of goal to work towards. For the first 22 years of my life my goals were all basically school related-- getting good grades, graduating, going to college, graduating-- and so on. After college I applied for grad school, had a 9-5 job (well actually 7-6), and then I was saving up and working towards the Brave trip. Now that I'm living here in Tacoma, I don't really have a goal ahead of me that I can work towards. I've thought about buying a house, which I really want to do, but I'm not sure if the timing is right yet. I've also thought about starting a local business, though I know that's not right yet either. I'm pretty content just having a little lull in my life right now, working weekends at the coffee shop, blogging and doing design work during the week, spending time with Dan and enjoying my new city. But still, I feel a void where that goal part of me wants to manifest itself. I love being able to work towards something. It's when I feel most alive and fulfilled, I think. But at the same time, I know that I can't just work towards anything-- it has to be something right. I've made that mistake in the past. Grad school was definitely that for me, and now I have thousands of dollars in debt for a semester of school I didn't even finish. Oh well. You live and you learn. But that means I can't just throw myself at the first whim that comes to my mind. I'm pretty spontaneous so I have a tendency to do that, and I'm learning to let things simmer before I jump in, to see if it's the right move. I have a lot of stuff swirling around in my head and nothing seems to be taking root yet, so we'll see.
This dress is from Annie of Time Enough for Drums, and when I got it even I (at a meager 5'1") didn't feel like wearing it as a dress it was so short. It's kind of a bummer because it looks really cute as a dress, just not long enough. Meh. So I did my usual dress-as-a-top maneuver and I like the result.
I've been feeling a bit boring with my typical black nylons/tights routine, but these ones are a bit different with a pretty lacey pattern. Plus, they're super thick and warm, which is nice since spring is still definitely a bit far off in the future. I used to wear more colorful tights a year ago, but since this winter started and tights season began again, I've been almost exclusively wearing black ones. I think I might go peruse We Love Colors and see if any colors strike my fancy.
